Am currently wasting my time. I'm on Facebook, MSN Messenger, Mixpod and blog. Facebook is giving me problem viewing videos so I ended up playing 3 games at the same time, Guess The Sketch, which is a live game, Mafia Wars, Barn Buddy and Cafe World. Oh wait, that makes 4 of it. Good. Multitasking for a teenager like me is normal, provided something to do with teenagers technology and leisure. Homework, bye bye. And I won the match. Duh~


I have exam in 3 weeks and I'm not studying. Yes, yeah right~ Every time I say this I get, "Oh come on, I'm worse. My exam's tomorrow and I ain't doing a bloody shit bout it.. bla bla bla.." Hey, whoever says that has no respect for others. Always talking about how you don't care about your exam is just so irritating. Well, why did I tell you at first? It's simply because I thought you're a good friend who will motivate me and scold me and push me to study but instead, you're moralising and right-ify last minute study with your own theories and experience. Then you move on to your personal problems that have nothing to do with what we first started talking about. Argh. Friends nowadays. FRIENDS? Heh! I bet you do feel real good and proud with your, SORRY, not so good result with no sense of guiltiness towards your parents. Not to mention your acts are totally irresponsible as a child, a sibling what heck I don't care if you're the only child, as a student and as a friend. You don't want to get me started on the issues of children lacking the incentives on learning THE RIGHT THING and self-improvement and what not.


I'm so freaking stressed out with my subjects. Bloody hell. Accounting is really getting on my nerves. First of all, the lecturer is moving fast. Alright, blame me for being slow or whatever but couldn't he just slow down a bit? And I must certainly thank every living organisms and stones and water on earth for having NICE classmates for answering him "No problem!" to wrong answers. We, the rest, ended up COMPLETELY AT SEA not knowing a single fuck that was going on. I have no accounting background and trust me, I suck in Accounting! I worked my ass off everytime I got the chance just to improve my accounting. Me and numbers just don't go the same way. I even have to memorize which goes to debit and credit not knowing why but I LOVE TO KNOW WHY but nobody will explain this shit to me. Oh yeah, I asked before, the answer was, "Just like that la! Follow only la! Formula la!" It is my last resort to take up accounting given my three choices and all you MORONS are not here to spoil my will to get on with it. I AM SO PISSED OFF! Do you know back in form 5, I cried because I don't understand why differentiation works the way it works? I CRIED FOR GOD'S SAKE! No I didn't cry like a baby but it was hardcore weeping. Seeing everybody doing the exercise like normal was just a hard thing for me to go through. I can't take it anymore so I asked a friend about the question. Surprisingly she herself didn't understand at all too but she just copied and what, MEMORIZED it? What the hell, you don't understand and you keep quiet and move on with it. Argh!


By the way, thanks to this very laptop which seduces me every day and night by relieving my stress, my eyesight went worse. I can't see clearly what's written on the bloody whiteboard. I had enough. I went in front and copied the entire thing. I can't help but just smiled and laughed and played along with my friends with a total zero knowledge gained today. Now don't come giving me suggestions on how to improve this situation because you have no idea what is wrong with the class and what is wrong with me. Shut up. And just get lost.


Tons of shits going through my brain now and I couldn't ease the pain of mind as though the mind wasn't mine. What is going on? Teenagers today. What shit. 

The storm is coming but I don't mind.

People are dying, I close my blinds.

All that I know is I'm breathing now.

I want to change the world, instead, I sleep.

I want to believe in more than you and me.

But all that I know is I'm breathing.

All I can do is keep breathing.

All we can do is keep breathing now.

- Keep Breathing by Ingrid Michaelson -

Keep breathing is my blog title. No one has asked why but the answer may be figured out soon already.

Life is a journey. 

Begins with lives and ends with deaths.

When you're not ready, it may come and take you away.

Even when you're ready, you may not go but stay.

Cherish is the mission, living is the reason.

What is there to hesitate when you are still breathing?

What is there to wait when you are still running?

What is there to praise when there is still a suffering?

What is there to chase when there is still an ending?

Ask not why but what, when all we can do is keep breathing.

- peixi -